what love is this

"You never change, you are the god you say you are
when I'm afraid you come and still my beating heart
you stay the same, when hope is just a distant thought 
you take my pain, and you lead me to the cross"

God, from when I first met you during the summer of 2010, to today, January 24th of 2012, you are the same. You are the same God who wiped my tears, who calmed my nerves, who saved my life, who consoled my pain, who lead me straight, who taught me right, who showed me the way, and who gave me life. If you did all that then, you can, and will do that now.

"What love is this, that you gave your life for me
and made a way for me to know you
and I confess, you're always enough for me 
you're all I need"

I can't even comprehend it, God. In a world where love is self-satisfying and selfish, you did the greatest act of selflessness because you love me. You died for me. You gave your life, your innocent blood, and your flowing tears, for me. What love is this? I don't even know. I'd ask for you to show it to me, but you already did. On the cross. When you were thinking of me.

"I look to You, I see the scars upon Your hands
And hold the truth, that when I can't, You always can
And standing here, beneath the shadow of the cross, 
I'm overwhelmed, that I keep finding open arms"

I lose count of the number of times You've told me that You can! You can heal my broken heart. You can give me peace. You can provide a way. And for once, I'm holding on to that truth. And I'm not forgetting it.
The love... the love You give me, the love You have for me... Even when I don't feel like I can love myself, You remind me that You do. With arms that will always be open, and will never reject me.

"What love is this that you gave your life for me 
and made a way for me to know you
And I confess, you're always enough for me
You're all I need"

Yes, I don't feel loved sometimes. I feel very much alone, and on my own, rejected, and unwanted. But no. That's not the case. Because You will always love me. And You will always be enough for me, even when people on earth fall painfully short.

"Jesus, in Your suffering, You are reaching, You thought of me
Jesus, in Your suffering, You are reaching, You thought of me"

At Your lowest! When they spit in Your face! When everyone hated You! When You died... You were thinking of me. Because You love me. Because.... You didn't want to see me suffer that same fate. So you took it from me.

"What love is this, that you gave your life for me
And made a way for me to know you
And I confess, you're always enough for me
You're all I need
What love is this, that you gave your life for me
And made a way for me to know you
And I confess, you're always enough for me
Always enough for me
Always enough for me"

You're the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords, and I'm the one you saved? Oh how small I feel. How humble. How fortunate. How loved. I want to praise you for the rest of my life. Here on my knees with my hands held high, I'll praise you forever.