Tell me.
What is it like to walk through life and see things that make you sick?
See things that make you cringe? What about things that make you angry?
Things that make you wanna throw a chair through a window or sit on the floor and scream?
How about things that make you melt?
Make your heart fill so fully and completely
with love and happiness that you can barely contain yourself?
What about things that make you wanna laugh?
And not just laugh like its a funny joke,
but laugh so hard that your side aches,
you might pee yourself,
your makeup is running,
and you can barely breathe?
What is it like to walk through life, feel these things, but never have the space to express these emotions freely?
We weren't given feelings so that we could stuff them. I've never been very good at that anyway. Everyone needs a place or a way for them to feel things the way we were made to feel them.
Society has taught us how to look, how to act, how to feel, and how to think.
To an extent, it's important that we do what society has taught us.
But when it comes to the ways in which I experience my life and the world,
that is where I say no more.
I want to experience every part of my life, in every way I was meant to.
If that means pain, than bring it on. I'm not afraid to fall into darkness. Just like I'm not afraid to claw my way out again.
Fear isn't something that we should run away from. Fear is something we should learn from, and grow from.
So much of who we are came from deciding somewhere, at sometime, that we were going to take the first step into unexplored nothingness.
We fell once.
We messed up once.
But we never failed.
We learned.
I have never failed.
Obviously I've felt like I've failed. I've sat there crying and pointed all fingers at my incapability. But never once did I fail at learning something from my falls.
Some say I'm the kind of person who can't learn from a warning. That I'm the kind of person who has to experience something in order to learn a lesson. And I guess that's true.
But what's wrong with that?
We all learn in different ways. And I've heard more than one person say that experience can be the greatest teacher.
And that's what I'm doing right now.
I'm experiencing.
Not that I have a whole lot of a choice. But really, if I had a choice between living my life my way, making mistakes, falling apart,
and then learning to put the pieces back together in a way only I was able to do on my own,
or following the rules, sticking to the norm and doing what I was told for my entire life,
I'd pick the former every time.
Yeah, that choice is harder. You probably fall a lot more, and you end up with many more scares, but the thing is, I like my scares. Every single one has a story. And every story has an ending that tells a little bit of who I am.
So, if the question is what is my blog about, I guess you could say it's about me.
It's about my journey. It's about the things I experience and how I feel about the world I live in. I'm learning a lot in this season of my life, and this is a place where I can talk about all of that.
Truthfully, I've never been more happy than I am right now. I have every control over my life. My mistakes are my mistakes, my triumphs are my triumphs, my heartbreaks are my heartbreaks, and my happiness is my happiness. No one else can claim credit for who I'm becoming.
I am all that I am, and every day I'm learning more about exactly what that includes. I hope you enjoy reading about what I find out.
See things that make you cringe? What about things that make you angry?
Things that make you wanna throw a chair through a window or sit on the floor and scream?
How about things that make you melt?
Make your heart fill so fully and completely
with love and happiness that you can barely contain yourself?
What about things that make you wanna laugh?
but laugh so hard that your side aches,
you might pee yourself,
your makeup is running,
and you can barely breathe?
What is it like to walk through life, feel these things, but never have the space to express these emotions freely?
We weren't given feelings so that we could stuff them. I've never been very good at that anyway. Everyone needs a place or a way for them to feel things the way we were made to feel them.
Society has taught us how to look, how to act, how to feel, and how to think.
To an extent, it's important that we do what society has taught us.
But when it comes to the ways in which I experience my life and the world,
that is where I say no more.
I want to experience every part of my life, in every way I was meant to.
If that means pain, than bring it on. I'm not afraid to fall into darkness. Just like I'm not afraid to claw my way out again.
Fear isn't something that we should run away from. Fear is something we should learn from, and grow from.
So much of who we are came from deciding somewhere, at sometime, that we were going to take the first step into unexplored nothingness.
We fell once.
We messed up once.
But we never failed.
We learned.
I have never failed.
Obviously I've felt like I've failed. I've sat there crying and pointed all fingers at my incapability. But never once did I fail at learning something from my falls.
Some say I'm the kind of person who can't learn from a warning. That I'm the kind of person who has to experience something in order to learn a lesson. And I guess that's true.
But what's wrong with that?
We all learn in different ways. And I've heard more than one person say that experience can be the greatest teacher.
And that's what I'm doing right now.
Not that I have a whole lot of a choice. But really, if I had a choice between living my life my way, making mistakes, falling apart,
and then learning to put the pieces back together in a way only I was able to do on my own,
or following the rules, sticking to the norm and doing what I was told for my entire life,
I'd pick the former every time.
Yeah, that choice is harder. You probably fall a lot more, and you end up with many more scares, but the thing is, I like my scares. Every single one has a story. And every story has an ending that tells a little bit of who I am.
It's about my journey. It's about the things I experience and how I feel about the world I live in. I'm learning a lot in this season of my life, and this is a place where I can talk about all of that.
Truthfully, I've never been more happy than I am right now. I have every control over my life. My mistakes are my mistakes, my triumphs are my triumphs, my heartbreaks are my heartbreaks, and my happiness is my happiness. No one else can claim credit for who I'm becoming.
I am all that I am, and every day I'm learning more about exactly what that includes. I hope you enjoy reading about what I find out.
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